Empowerment

My Dad Was Diagnosed With Cancer Last Week.

A fathers love is like no other. They love and hope to the God above that you will love you like they do. A fathers love is infinite and kind . It never stops or rewinds.

My daddy is my superhero ! He can hustle and work. You see these hands… His hands are like mine. Except their tough and hard like one of a kind. My daddy had 4 jobs, and could catch a lob and ally oop it!

We’re like Bestfriends but never did I ever think that would end.

It was October 31st of All Hallows’ ’ eve and the air was bittersweet with a taste of candy corn as my brain was torn because I was just told that my dad was in the hospital.

I soon came to know that what seemed to be an ordinary blood pressure check turned out to be much more… Multiple Myeloma. A twisted contuition of a word that I had never heard. Much more than that was what the doctor said after …Not knowing of the disaster that would hit me like a ton of bricks.

And yes..It sticks to my heart like super glue feelings made new that the diagnosis for his pain would never sustain , because there was …………no cure. No cure for the pain he was about to endure.

Stage 3. Not 1, Not 2, But 3.

My heart dropped . Shatterred into pieces.

The doctor gave my daddy a death sentence!

Why do bad things happen to good people? If God is so infinite and so loving than why would He give my daddy a death sentence?!

Who will comfort me when I have bad days and make me smile?

Who will protect me when I am defenseless?

Who will watch the Mavs games with me even when they lose?

Who will  walk me down the isle of my wedding day?  And  WHO…. would give me away?

GOD! CAN YOU HEAR ME? IS THIS A TEST? MAYBE ITS A DREAM? Lemme pinch myself… wake up Monica . Wake up !

DAMN this isn’t a dream!!! God what do you want from me?!!!

You see the hardest part about life is you never know…Where the road is going to go.

Faith. A word that is unseen , no bounds , no limit . Nothing can dim it . Faith  tests and perseveres through fear even when your path seems unclear.

Faith is  the only strand of hope I have. A strand …A strand will make you stand and speak …….

even when your knees get weak.